4th of February, Under the mask

I thought my heart was so pure, so young, and so kind
I thought I wouldn't do anything to hurt people
I thought I was so sincere to my family and friends
I thought I won't ever lie
I thought I would be loyal to love

Know what? Things will change, as well as human being!
Shouldn't I defend if I was hurt?
Shouldn't I protect myself if someone is going to harm me?

Selfishness, aloofness, hypocrisy, aggressiveness and etc
They are all inherent in the human's psyche
Those are the tiny feelings which everyone isn't unfamiliar to

Am I that horrible person? Is it really me to blame?
Is this what I get for being too nice?

We were told when we were little that
We should be kind, generious, and loving to other people
Now I dont think we should be taught all those
And instead we should be taught anything at all
What to do when we are dealing with loads of shit

Saying goes:"Love can conquer anything!"

It's Bull Shit!

Doing good things made me a bad person

Or it can be said...
I don't know how to do things right
What's the right thing though?

Everything seems in such disequilibrium
Nothing seems balanced
Life is disoriented

I was taught to be good, be honest, to be sincere...
But why are they going to the opposite way?

A liar asks me to be honest
Heavy smoker asks me not to smoke
A man who loves fucking around asks me to be loyal to love

Are these normal?

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Unmask my heart
It's so hollow and vain

Am I loved?
or Am I loved for some reason?

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With the mask
I'm the happiest girl in the world...

For living sake
I won't ever take it off

I will obey the rule of this game